half way point

arghh! Today had to be one of my worst days ever. Mid terms were killer and I didn't even have that many! Its pretty sad when you're flipping out in your last year of high school when everythings supposed to be "easy" over a stupid mid term. Well maybe if you had forgotten you're notes for an open book test then maybe you could see why it was a mess. But all of that aside mid terms also means us seniors are that much closer to what underclassmen dream of their whole high school careers.For me this only brings more anxiety as the close of my senior year is half way here and everything if far from "easy".I still feel like I have a lot of things to do to prepare for what comes next in my life.Even after figuring out the hard question of what I wanted to do and where I wanted to go and getting accepted. There's always how am I going to pay for that and will I be ready? Some times I think I wont be ready because I need so much help school work wise.Maybe I worry too much and maybe that's to blame for this axiety,but how will I know if I don't try it. Time will tell but until then that's one of the things in the back of my mind.

you can find it in the news

New Initiatives:
Keep customers connected
A fiber optic disaster
and a cyber Tsunami
Qantas carriers with text and e-mail
XM satallite and ipod connections
Testing, Testing
In the air
super jumbo jets and luxury lines
but no broadband on land?
significant slowdowns
then trust levels go down

a new years resolution..

Looking back at the past year I've been rather successful with school and extra things that I do. However I was never successful at keeping my new years resolution. I've had the same resolution of working out at least 3 times a week in some way or form to become more fit for the past 2 years and now I think its time for change.One thing I could improve on is my outlook on life. I realized that im always thinking negatively about things and that will never get me anywhere in life, especially these days.With college around the corner and a new beginning I think it would be better if I didn't think so negatively. Thinking negatively only makes things harder on you and lowers your confidence, as I've experienced myself.Negative thoughts only bring you down in the end and don't really help you become sucessful.This problem is more like a bad habit to me kind of like smoking is to many people out there.Like many bad habits it may be hard to quit entirely but I'll try my best not to be so negative.

about a post

"It is like a daydream that you can pick a time in your lifes timeline and watch it like you are there again! It is amazing to think that no memories can ever fade! There may be a lot more anger that way!" [ashley on the Tralfamadorians view]


The basic idea of the Tralfamadorians view of life and this post interested me. The part that interested me the most was when she implied there may be a lot more anger with this view. I agree with the idea that this view of life could frustrate people causing anger in many.The main reason I am led to believe this would cause anger is that people on our world believe they have the power to pick and choose their destiny. I know people would be frustrated to know that they could do everything in their power to avoid certain things in their life from happening and it would still happen because it was always meant to be that way. I myself could not find comfort in being able to look at every detail of my life, good and bad and know I could never change it.However this view of life could be helpful at times when you need direction in life. But I believe this view of life could lead to many unmotivated people becuase there would be no real reason to try if you already knew what was going to happen in your life and that it couldnt change.I also believe that this view would take the adventure out of life by being able to look at every detail in your life and not be able to change any of it.

verses

Compared to World War 2 the Vietnam was viewed as a waste of time and lives. Popular culture viewed the conflict similarly, recognizing World War 2 events easily over any event that happened in Vietnam. However history further glorifies World War 2 making it way more famous and important to the U.S. people. It also praises the men who fought in the war and glorifies their generation of men.I believe that while comparing the two wars Vonnegut views them equally.However he knows that the Vietnam War was not nearly as famous as World War 2.I think Vonnegut viewed war as war, place no one really wants to be when they get there.He also does not glorifiy one specific generation of men because they were all the same in ways, all afraid of going to war.

The real war

My thoughts on "The Secret Letter" and how it relates to Slaughter-House five http://www.time.com/time/world/article/0,8599,1543658-1,00.html


The soldiers account of war relates to those experiences of Billy Pilgrim in Slaughter-House five is that both viewed war as the same everywhere.The author of "The Secret Letter" captured the basic truths about war while not releasing classified information.The soldier also gets the idea of what soldiers have to deal with daily and informs the reader that being out there is not what the TV makes it out to be.The media often times down grades the war or makes statements that are purely made from what they know least about because they have not been there for themselves. When the time came about to write about their experiences both the soldier and Vonnegut fell upon similar difficulties felt that there was nothing to write about when there were many things they could have written about. However both did not elaborate on what people would think happens in war with heroic tales and were neither for nor against the war.

a differnt view

In the novel Slaughter-house-five the main character Billy, belives he had been abducted by aliens from the planet Talfamadore. The creatures there view different moments in time past, present or future as the same because everything that happens was meant to happen.With this view you would have the abilitly to see time with clarity and have the comfort of knowing that the people who have died are not really dead.This view of time would also give you the ability to see what the future holds for you. However this could be a bad thing to know what happens in your future and not be able change it because it was meant to be that way.The Tralfamadorian view of things gives people no free will to pick and choose what they are going to do next because what ever they do in life was supossed to happen.With no free will they already know the consequence to their actions.The Tralfamadorian way would lead many to have less self motivation because they cannot change.Billy's attempt to educate the public of there way would be pointless and no one would want to live like that anyway.